Planning the Mist

There have been lots of conversations about plans for the future between Justin and I in the past days, weeks, months, and years.  We all have dreams, goals, ambitions that then translate into plans.  Our calendars quickly fill up with appointments, work schedules, vacations and plans with friends and family.  I’ve always been a detail-oriented person, and love filling in the details of an event, and then getting miffed when details and plans change.  As I look back on the last couple of years, I see just how much I have changed in this fashion.  We’ve experienced too many sudden life changes, shooting all plans to pieces, to put too much stock in our thoughts for the future.  Buy a building, lose a job.  Walk through it.  Make dinner plans, attend a funeral instead.  Walk through it.    The plans we made for ourselves didn’t turn out to be part of the Big Plan.

Do I still make plans for the weeks and months ahead?  Absolutely.  I like purpose and a goal to move forward toward.  But those plans are drawn on an Etch a Sketch, ready to be shook about, smudged, changed, or in place so long that they become permanent.  I’ll just keep walking through my mist-like life, loving who I can love, and serving who I can serve.  That’s the Plan for now.